I have not been riding in about three months now. In fact I have not been to the stables or around horses at all since that day with Amber. And I am really starting to miss it; miss riding and being around horses. I think I will have to suck it up and go back soon. Once I get there and get back on a horse I will probably wonder why I didn’t do it sooner. I guess I just need to do it – like a plaster – just rip it off.
I also need to take the sticker of the horse (which represented Amber) off my car. I have been putting that off too.
I know it sounds silly, but this (riding and especially Amber) has been a big part of my life for such a long time; it’s almost like being out of sight out of mind has been the only way for me not to think about or deal with it. But the sacrifice for not riding which is what I really love, is probably not worth it or won’t be in the end. I have given it time, it’s now time to get back on that horse.
– On a side note – I am really happy and grateful for support from the penguins at work as well as horse owners at Banbury (Ann and Ashley) during that difficult time. Muchas gracias.