People have bad days. We all have bad days right? Some people just have more bad days then others… I think I am one of those people.
I really have to work at being upbeat and happy. It’s something that I have to keep doing; to keep on keeping on. I need to do it constantly – everyday. It needs to become a habit. And some days are better than others, yes, sometimes it’s easy and other times I don’t event want to get out of bed; but I guess that’s life – it happens.
Maybe this is more than just a few bad days (more than a few) and maybe I need help. Maybe this mid life crises thing is real. I am getting older. I still don’t have the life I thought I would have and it’s not getting any easier. But maybe part of that problem is that I don’t really know what I want or that I am not specific enough about what I want. Who knows?
I am not sure what I need to do to fix this. There isn’t some magic wand that I can just wave and everything will be better. I wish. I do need a little inspiration every now and then. It helps. Some motivation to keep me going. Part of that is taking care of myself as no one else is going to do it, and that means spoiling myself, treating myself to nice experiences and buying myself things. I can’t expect anyone else to want to care about me if I can’t/don’t care about me first. Right? Right…
I guess I just needed to get this out. Sorry – not sorry.