Emotional, negative and distracted because…

So I found out this weekend that Jared is in a new relationship.. I should be happy.. If I was the better person then I should be.. I can pretend that it does not bug me.. But in actual fact it does…

Why should I care? I shouldn’t.. Why do I? I don’t know…

So I made a list of reasons why he was not right for me in the hope that it would make me feel better…

Here it my list:

  • He was too young for me anyway – young and immature
  • He had had numerous relationships with older married women  – which always made me feel uneasy… Did not like hearing about it or speaking about it..
  • He told me that if his ex ever wanted him back he would go back to her without hesitation – comforting right?
  • He would only call me, want to see me when it suited him – or when he wanted to do a couples thing. We only ever had one date – alone…
  • He broke up with me over WhatsApp – without a reason and refused to take my calls – he just said he cant do “this” anymore.. All we were was a “this”.. Um ok..

Other things about him I didn’t like:

  • He let me drive home drunk once and didn’t care if I got home in one piece or not and didn’t phone me the next day to find out how I was after getting sick…
  • I always had to pay for drinks for us – plus his friend and his friends’ girlfriend – every time we went out; I paid for the 4 of us to go camping one weekend; I organized tickets to the cricket for the four of us and I had to drive and pay for petrol and pay for all their expensive drinks later at Billies which was over R1000 (I didn’t have any drinks cos I was designated driver) and then McDonald’s for us all on the way home; I also sponsored his gambling activities a number of times cos I was the only one with cash…
  • He wasn’t all that good looking – he was – and still is – overweight and he has a receding hairline – in his twenties… Nice…  Plus a hairy chest – which I don’t like – and he has already had a stroke from overdosing – so not the healthiest person on the planet.. Ok  some of that was low but I am just trying to make myself feel better…

This is just a rant and yes I am hurting and yes I might have not have been right for him either.. But that’s not the point.. Not right now anyway…

Here is a link to the breakup post btw…

 

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