Doing things for myself and making decisions

I guess that I have to learn to start doing things for myself. And I am not talking about the obvious.

I am talking about spoiling myself. It’s not that I ever expected other people to do it.

I need to be more decisive. I need to do something about my life. And I need to take the time and do what I need to do for me. Spoil me. Pamper me. Buy things for myself. No one else is going to do it and no one else cares to be honest and I dont expect them to either.

I decided I needed a new cellphone. I didn’t know what I wanted. Eventually I just phoned Cell C and ordered a new phone. Probably took longer than it should have but at least I did it. I made a decision. And in the back of mind, I know that whatever I buy will already be outdated but thats the nature of technology and everyone else is essentially in the same boat unless you are a billionaire that is.

I have wanted a Casio Baby G-shock watch for ages, years in fact. And they keep getting better and better. I eventually just decided to go out and buy one. I looked all over the place, tried on a few, eventually found an Illuminator – not a Baby-G  which is what I was looking for initially but after trying on a white G-Shock I changed my mind about it having seen how dirty the trial one was. The Tough Illuminator is just as good if not better – it looks good, felt good when I tried it on and I got it a bargain price 🙂

So there you go. I have a car that I am busy paying off – again a decision to put whatever I have each month into a savings account and then pay it to Ford Credit in small chunks. It means not going out much and not eating take-aways for lunch and not just buying things whenever I feel like it. It’s a decision that I made and I have to try stick to it.

And I want to invest in property at some point. Even if it is only a tiny shoebox one bedroom apartment. That will require a few more years of saving and living at home unfortunately. Again – a decision.

Which brings me to this one tough decision… I need to make a decision about what I am going to do about Amber – and it’s not going to be easy. She is lame. She is in pain. And I need to do something about it. Finding her another home is not going to be easy as no one wants a lame young horse; which leaves me with only one other option.

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