About me... I do this blogging thing every now and again. I am not sure if I am even getting it right - but it's an outlet :)
I am passionate about reading and so I write a lot of reviews.
Having not actually blogged about anything really personal in a while I came across this topic for a blog post.
I thought about six words that describe me and this is what I came up with.
I realised these are mostly negative words so I will have to put a list together of more positive words – but maybe one day when I feel a bit more positive about life! One step at a time they say.
I am very stubborn; very hard headed. Once I have made up my mind about something, that’s it; it’s very difficult to get me to change especially if I am emotional about it, I just can’t let it go.
This is something I have struggled with for a number of years. I have this bad habit of bringing myself down when things start going right for me (or any time actually) – in relationships it’s particularly bad and I end up pushing people away; I ruin things – a lot of things. I have done a lot of stupid things in my life and I always end up paying the price.
This needs no explanation. I am cheeky and I won’t deny it. Sometimes its completely playful and fun; other times there is an undertone of bitchiness and meanness – and I can’t help it #nofilter.
Sometimes I don’t think before I speak or answer. You can always trust on me to be honest but the way it comes out is blunt and to the point. I need to work on my bedside manner a bit or maybe just think (and count to ten) before I speak.
I bitch and moan a lot. Especially when I am tired and have not slept; insomnia is the worst. Once I start it’s hard to stop and appreciation for the finer things in life goes right out the window.
I have this resentful streak in me that I dislike intensely and I know I need to work on. It rears its ugly head every now and again. I resent myself mostly and a lot of the decisions I have made, and I will always be resentful of Mark. That’s six years of my life that I will never get back; the debt and the unnecessary drama slash trauma was not worth the few and far between good times.
So that is that. A bit of downer but I needed to get this out…
Once you know your problems are and all that.. Onwards and upwards.
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