6 words that describe me

Having not actually blogged about anything really personal in a while I came across this topic for a blog post.

I thought about six words that describe me and this is what I came up with.

I realised these are mostly negative words so I will have to put a list together of more positive words – but maybe one day when I feel a bit more positive about life! One step at a time they say.

1. stubborn

I am very stubborn; very hard headed. Once I have made up my mind about something, that’s it; it’s very difficult to get me to change especially if I am emotional about it, I just can’t let it go.

2. self-sabotaging

This is something I have struggled with for a number of years. I have this bad habit of bringing myself down when things start going right for me (or any time actually) –  in relationships it’s particularly bad and I end up pushing people away; I ruin things – a lot of things. I have done a lot of stupid things in my life and I always end up paying the price.

3. sarcastic/facetious

This needs no explanation. I am cheeky and I won’t deny it. Sometimes its completely playful and fun; other times there is an undertone of bitchiness and meanness – and I can’t help it #nofilter.

4. honest with zero tact

Sometimes I don’t think before I speak or answer.  You can always trust on me to be honest but the way it comes out is blunt and to the point. I need to work on my bedside manner a bit or maybe just think (and count to ten) before I speak.

5. negative

I bitch and moan a lot. Especially when I am tired and have not slept; insomnia is the worst. Once I start it’s hard to stop and appreciation for the finer things in life goes right out the window.

6. resentful

I have this resentful streak in me that I dislike intensely and I know I need to work on. It rears its ugly head every now and again. I resent myself mostly and a lot of the decisions I have made, and I will always be resentful of Mark. That’s six years of my life that I will never get back; the debt and the unnecessary drama slash trauma was not worth the few and far between good times.

 

So that is that. A bit of downer but I needed to get this out…

Once you know your problems are and all that.. Onwards and upwards.

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    • The Other Megan - 2 years ago

      It’s not all bad. At least you recognise these things about yourself and realise you have flaws. It’s those folk that think they are perfect that suck big balls.